The Search is Over

It's been rainy these past couple of days and I woke up early this morning for work but I felt that the gravity is like ten times stronger when i'm at bed so i decided to have my mocha to boost me up. The taste of coffee infused with cocoa is really tempting, it's like a dessert in a cup and i really enjoyed it, also the weather! :)

After work i decided to go to the mall to eat lunch and finally went home afterwards. I thought it was just a normal day for me, going to work then going home, then sleep, eat , pray, etc., like the usual routine i had for a couple of months but today was different,  it feels like the wind is whispering in my ears and orchestrating my thoughts, my heart  was pounding really hard i thought it was a heart burn. I had my water and there was relief then i decided to sleep, maybe i'm just tired and needs to rest. When i woke up i turned my laptop on, watched a movie then checked my FB account. When i was checking my FB i happened to chat with a friend i've never talked to for years i guess. It was great catching up with him since i have no idea what and where he's been into for the past years, He was a RN and i thought he is already working as a regular staff in a hospital or maybe applying as a nurse abroad. Little did i know that he was already abroad but not as a nurse but with a different profession, i was in awe because it takes a lot of guts to do that one! Imagine studying very hard for 4 years and really pushing it through to pass the board then after a couple of years decided to throw away that profession for a while and search for himself? that was a brave thing to do! The best part is that his parents are really well-off and he decided to leave, getting out of his comforts zone and stood up by himself. 

Then i realized, what if i choose a different path as well? Honestly, i want to find myself too.  i believe everyone of us has his or her own soul to search, all of us choose different paths like course, job, hobby, etc. but few of us really know what we want to do. We are all good in nature but sometimes the series of events and circumstances of our lives affects the way we decide things that leads us to different paths. Financial status is a big factor for almost everyone of us, let say i want to become a digital artists but because of my circumstance i can't enroll for digital arts since i can't afford the course. Another example is i want to become a photographer but since my rich and famous dad's only son is me and i have no choice but to go for a business course to become his future successor. 

This world is unfair right? Why do we have to be stressed by this world pushing us to paths we don't really want?

I am lost already! crap! but there is one thing i am sure of in this world, and that is faith! whatever our circumstances are right now, whatever trials we're in right now i'm asking you to also accept it wholeheartedly like what i'm trying to do because God placed us in that position, status or circumstance for Him to be glorified. He will never leave you nor forsake you, he will be with you wherever you go, whatever you do, you just need to connect with Him.

Maybe you are like me before who said that "No, you don't understand i have no options already, i'm already shattered into pieces by these troubles i'm experiencing"

Guess what?

"... In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! i have overcome the world"
John 16:33
- Jesus

"Our lives are meant for trouble but we have a God whose size is double"

Keep the faith! 

until the next post

Abraham Lee